As we are approaching Savannah's 3rd Birthday in Heaven, I have been reflecting on her life and how it changed me and the lives of so many others. As I write this, I am still unsure of where I am in the grieving cycle. I still have bad days and sad days; days when I would give anything to go back in time to May 17th and done something to save her life.
Nearly 3 years later, I have felt a need to release ~ to release some of the anger, release the hurt, release the pain, release the anxiety, release the sadness, and release the grief. I give it all over to God to guide my heart and my life just a little closer to Him. I try not to think about the sadness of what was lost in Savannah's life and replace it with gratitude for the time that we did have and what her brief life brought into your world and our hearts.
Savannah is at peace in a world with no pain and no sorrow and although we feel those things here, we look forward to the day when we can all be reunited together again as a family for all of eternity.
I have written about this before, but each of us has purpose and meaning to our lives. Savannah fulfilled God's purpose, but we still have work to do. There are people to help, strangers to become friends, and hurts to heal. We each have a mission. What is yours and how do you plan to use your life to fulfill it?
Tomorrow, we will gather with friends and family to Welcome Irelynn to the World. It is bittersweet in many ways, but mostly because we will gather to celebrate Irelynn's life in the same place where we last gathered with friends and family following Savannah's funeral almost 3 years ago.
Cherish each moment with your family and remember to always be thankful for your blessings in life. If you have a roof over your head, food in your stomach, clothes in your closet, and the love of family and friends, then you are truly blessed.