We arrived with everything despite the heavy rains. We had planned a picnic but because of the rain, we opted to eat at the Olive Garden instead. We headed out and visited with Savannah. We left the cake we had gotten for her and her new flowers were placed lovingly on her space. Jeremy was still in the car and with the windows open, we sang Happy Birthday. Jeremy blew her kisses and it was done. It was not the fancy HUGE party I had always wanted to throw my daughter, but it was fitting for the situation.
It's so hard because I am still so angry. I don't understand why this happened or how it happened. I don't understand why my doctor who is responsible for this gave birth to twins this month and I am here suffering 3 miscarriages following losing Savannah. Not only is it not fair, but everyone else just gets to go on living their lives and I am here in pain and grief.